Torn....

So for the last couple of weeks me and eric have been talking about moving. We don't have a specific reason why, it's just kind of been in our minds. Eric got a new job at Halliburton and he hates it. All i do is sit at home, i don't go anywhere. I know that Aiden is only 6 weeks and i'm not saying i want to just go places all the time. We have no friends here, it seems like as soon as you get married or have kids they just drop you......If we moved, there would be alot we would have to sacrifice. We would have to sell our car, our dogs, and maybe even other things. We feel like if we were to stay here the only way we could make a good living is if Eric moves up in his job, which might take 5 or 10 years, and we really don't want to just rely on the oil field our whole life. Salt lake however has more options but the pay sucks. Eric would go to school and i would have to get a job, but i feel like if we want make the living that we want then that's what it will take. I hate decisions, especially something as big as this. I am scared that growing Aiden up in Salt Lake might not be the best decision, but also, he is going to have trials in his life no matter where he lives. I feel like we could start over and make new friends, and meet new people. I would miss our families so much if we moved, and i love how close we are to lakes, and camping, and how fun vernal is in summer. I just want to do what's best for our family.

Any opinions would be great :)

Birthday

Yesterday was Eric's Birthday and i cannot put into words how much he means to me. He is the most incredible husband and father anybody could ask for. We couldn't afford very much this year so i baked him a cake and bought him a card. He was so excited and surprised to see that i made him one :) He turned 23 and when i met him he was just 17, so crazy!! I love you baby more than anything in this world, Happy Birthday

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LOVE HIM :)

Aiden Eric Dilworth :)

So i know that Aiden is a little over a week now, but i definately haven't had time to blog about him yet. As he is laying here sleeping i figured i would.



So on Monday the 25th i was scheduled to be induced at 7 am because we thought he was going to be a big baby. I was measuring really big and had a TON of fluid so they thought he was going to be at least 9 pounds! So we went in, put on the wonderful nightgown they supply haha and got hooked up to all the monitors and was scared out of my mind. I was so nervous i was going to meet my little boy that day! The nurse checked me and i was still a 2 from the Thursday before at a Dr. Appt. So i just laid there for an hour to see if i would progress. Well i didn't so they gave me a pill called Cervidil that goes under my cervix that is supposed to help me dilate. It kicked in after an hour or so, and all it really did was make me REALLY crampy. So i laid there for 4 hours....and made it to a 3 but wasn't thinning at all which is really what they wanted me to do. She gave me another dose and waited another 4 hours.....and nothing. She gave Dr. B a call and he said to send me home. WHAT?! I was pissed, sad, confused. Why not just put me on pit? Start me? My body just wasn't having it, and my little guy wasn't ready to come out. After being on the Cervidil for 8 hours and experiencing what it made my body feel like, i went home with a completely different mind set. I told myself, when he is ready to come, he will, and i don't want to force my body to do something its not ready for. So he told me to come back the next morning because sometimes it works overnight. So we did, and nothing. We went back home and i told Eric i am done going to the hospital until it's time.

Sorry if it's too much information, but that night i kept feeling like i was peeing my pants, just a little bit at a time. Everytime i would stand up or change positions something would leak out (gross) so i thought it was just from them checking me, whatever. It kept happening, so i called in Wed about noon and she told me to come in just to get checked because it could be amniotic fluid. I didn't call Eric or anyone because i didn't want to go through the same thing of getting everyone's hopes up. So they did a test on me and sure enough my water broke just a tiny bit. So she told, "Your not leaving without a baby this time" Holy moly!! Of course the day i AM prepared they send me home, and when i think i am just peeing my pants they keep me!! haha

So she started me on pit around 2:00 and we just waited. Dr. B came in around 5:00 and broke my water, and honestly i think it was the coolest feeling ever. haha i know, weird. Once he broke it, i started to hurt really bad. My contractions were right on top of eachother and never had a break in between. I am not good with pain AT ALL, so for me, these hurt, and i figured i have experienced some of labor pain so i will just enjoy it from here on out. haha So they gave me the epidural and i felt amazing. The rest of the night we just waited. It was nice to have it during the middle of the night because Eric, my mom, and grandma could just sleep. Me on the other hand did not. I finally got to a 7 and from then it went by way fast, i was fully dilated around 7 am Thursday and pushed for about 2 1/2 hours, and our little guy arrived at 9:37 am on the 28th of October.

I have read so many peoples blogs about there experience of having a baby and i truly know what they mean now. Words can't even express my love for him. The experience seeing him for the first time and hearing him cry for the first time is indescribable.
I cannot believe that me and Eric have made something so perfect and how blessed we are. I look at him and wonder how i have lived my life without him. I never thought i could love someone so much. Overall i had the best pregnancy, and the best experience having him. I would do it again in a heartbeat. I cannot wait to watch him grow, and just enjoy be his mommy. I love both of my boys so much and i am the luckiest girl in this world. :)

Aiden Eric Dilworth
October 28th 9:37 am
7 lbs 6 oz 20 1/2 inches long :)



First family pic, more to come :)

Tomorrow :)

So tomorrow is the day!! We finally get to meet our little boy :) I am very very nervous i am not going to lie. I told myself i would go in there calm, but i definately am nervous of the unknown!! I know everything is going to be fine and that i am in good hands :) I will update as soon as i can!! Wish us luck :)

37 weeks

So i went to the doctors today. Nothing changed. I am still dilated a 1 1/2 but i gained 2 more cm. He wanted to give me an ultra sound just to make sure my fluid levels are ok and he isn't huge. My levels were good, they were around 18.5 which is a little high but not really high, and they are estimating him at 7.14 already!!! Give or take a pound. To me that sounds huge!! haha, but as long as he is healthy i am ok. The ultra sound tech was super nice and gave me a 3-D ultra sound for free, so here are a couple pics of our chubby little monkey! :)

Update

So i am just sitting on my couch being bored and decided to update anyone who is interested :)

So i had a doctors appointment last Thursday. Everything was normal, blood pressure good, lost a pound, just like it always has been. He said he didn't need to check me just because the week before i wasn't dialated and he said it really wouldn't have changed. I have been on Terbutaline to stop my contractions so he told me to keep taking those until i hit 37 weeks, which is Tuesday. So he wanted to just get my measurements and his heartbeat. Heartbeat was good, as normal, then he went to check my measurements and had a puzzled look on his face. Then he measured again, and said "that can't be right" Then decided it was. Well, the week before i was measuring 37 cm. i was 35 wks and 2 days. I have been measuring bigger the whole pregnancy, don't know why, but i wasn't too worried about it. Well when he measured me on Thurs i was 40 cm!!! I grew 3 cm. in one week........So naturally i am a little freaked out. He said i could either have a big baby, or just more fluid, or that's just how my body is. I wish he would have done an ultra sound just because i am curious what it is. Honestly, i don't want to have to try and push out a 10 pounder......but as long as he is healthy i am ok :)
So he basically told me he did not want me to go to full term because i am measuring big and too stop taking the meds and hopefully i will go into labor on my own. Lets just say, after the appt. me and my mom went for a 2 mile walk :) Didn't seem to help haha

Yesterday around 2:00 i was having contractions pretty consistent and they were really starting to get uncomfortable, not hurting to the point of making me cry, but pretty uncomfortable. So around 7 they were about 5 min apart and lasted for about 50 sec-1 min. So naturally i thought i was ready, so i went in just to make sure and to get checked. She hooked me up to the monitor, baby was great, and my contractions were about 3-4 min apart by now, so she checked me and i was 50% thinned (efaced)???,my cervix was still pretty firm and closed....UGH!!!! So frustrating. So she said that she wanted to keep me for an hour to be monitored to see if i changed. So she came back in an hour and checked me and my cervix softened, i was more thinned, and dialated to a 1 :) I was pretty happy about that, so of course we had to stay another hour. Checked me after that hour and hadn't changed. :( So me and eric decided just go home and get comfortable (i was SOOO uncomfortable) and just see what happens. We went home, i took a bath, and slept great.......I have had them all day about 4 min apart but not getting worse. I know it may seem like i am just blabbing on and on but i really am just frustrated. I DO know that he needs to stay in there and honestly i would be ok if he did. I just wish my body didn't feel like it was trying, and i wish i knew without a doubt when to go to the hospital because i feel stupid being sent home. I am not good with pain, so for me these hurt. Everyone tells me "you will know" and i know that i will know, but it is still frustrating :(
So we are just hanging out waiting for his arrival. Hoping it would be today 10-10-10, but, don't think that will happen.
Any advice from any of you would be muchly appreciated :) Thanks!

Baby's room

So we are finally finished with Aiden's room and i figured i would take some pictures and show it off. We have had so much fun putting it together and having our little projects for it. We refinished the rocking chair and Eric made (yes MADE) his dresser/changing table. He is incredible!! :) The walls are pretty bright just too warn you, BUT you get used to it :)



This chair used to be my mom's when we were babies. It used to be a cream color with like a plaid fabric with every color under the sun!! haha So we just sanded it down and re-stained it then covered the old pillows with canvas. Then i used one of his receiving blankets and made a pillow out of it :) It turned out way cute i think







Yes, he made this :) Amazing right??



He painted these for him too :)









So i know it sounds like i am bragging about my husband and im really not trying too, but i truly am so lucky to have such a great artist and handy man :) I love that he was able to put his passion into making Aiden's room and i know it's going to mean so much more too him as he grows up :)

So on Tuesday i will be 36 weeks. Honestly it feels like i should more than that, like 38 weeks maybe? lol i know it is just me wishing but my body just feels ready. I did have to go to the hospital last sunday, no biggie, i was just having contractions and they were pretty close together, they were worried enough to put me on Terbutaline to stop my contractions. I basically have to take them when my contractions start getting closer together or if they just hurt. Usually 1/2 of a pill subsides them but lately i have had to take about 1 1/2. So i'm not sure if they are getting worse or what. I couldn't work more that 4 hours at a time and basically just have to take it easy. I am not dialated still as of Wed, but i am thinned and he is engaged, which frankly i don't really know what that means.....i have had SO much pressure down there almost like he is going to fall out haha it is such an uncomfortable feeling, but i'm sure those of you reading know how that feels. It is frustrating feeling like my body wants him to come out but i do know he is SO much better in there. I am thinking if i make it 2 more weeks, we will be ok :) Here is a pic of me i took today, and i must say that i am HUGE!!! :) ENJOY

What a day

So the last couple of days i have had this feeling of my stomach tightening sorta like he was just pushing his little body outwards, so i didn't really think anything of it. Well yesterday morning after i ate breakfast i had about 3. So i called my mom and she told me just to lay down and see if they go away. Well they didn't go away so i was timing them and had about 5 within that hour. So i called a nurse and explained the feeling and what was going. She asked me how far along i was and when i said almost 35 weeks she told me if i keep having anymore to come in. So i layed down and drank some water and still had them. Eric's mom called me and said that if they are the Braxton Hicks then usually getting up and going for a walk or doing something around the house should make them go away. So me and eric got up and decided to go for a walk, apparently that isn't the best thing to do haha. So while we were on our walk i had about 3. Called the nurse again and it was a different one so she basically just told me the same thing. They weren't hurting me at all they were just uncomfortable so i figured i would wait it out and see how i slept and what would happen today. I slept great so i thought maybe it was just that day or whatever. Well i had breakfast and within that half hour i had about 4 so me and my mom decided we better go down to the hospital just in case.

So they hooked me up to the monitor and checked me and i wasn't dialated at all. I was thinned but she didn't want to check me for too long since that can start to dialate it. So i layed there for about an hour and she came in and said my contractions were pretty consistent, and they were about 3-4 min apart. So she gave me a shot of Trebutaline (sp) Once that kicked in my contractions were flat. I didn't have any for about 30 min. So Dr. Breintenbach came in said just to take it easy, then noticed my contractions were starting up again, so he sent me home with a prescription of the Trebutaline. I basically just have to take it easy and not do anything that would put me into labor. We are both doing great, other than i HATE the way this medicine makes me feel, but i know he is so much better inside than out. It definately has been a nerve racking morning but everything is good and i will try and keep everyone updated :) I think my little boy might be here sooner than we thought....:)

32 weeks :)

So this week i am 32 weeks, Holy cow! Where has the time gone?! I can't believe i only have a little over 7 weeks left. This weekend i am going out to Salt Lake for my baby shower and i am soo excited :) I think once we start getting toys and more baby stuff it will REALLY start to set in :) He moves SOO much i can't even tell you. He will wake me up in the morning about the same time just from moving so much, and i love to just lay there and feel him. I know it sounds crazy, but it's almost like we already are so close and have a special bond :) I just love him so much already and i can't WAIT until i get to hold him in my arms. I really can't believe how much he already means to me :)
I have a Doctors appt. tomorrow and those are my favorite :) i love just going and hearing whats going. Nothing else really is happening in our lives, obviously Aiden is already the center of our attention because that is all that we have going on :) Here is a picture of me at 32 weeks. Enjoy!! :)

Lots of posts in one

So we have done a lot in the last while so i decided to just blog about all of it in one :)

I decided to make a cake on my day off the other day because it was just sitting in my cupboard so while it was cooling off i was making some cream cheese frosting to go on top. Well this is what happens when your belly gets in the way :)



On Friday me and Eric both had the day off so we got up and got ready for him to go job hunting. So he took me to lunch and then we both decided to go up camping at Red Fleet for a night. I haven't slept in a tent in probably a year and it definately was an experience being 7 1/2 months pregnant. We made some foil dinners and smores :) It was so peaceful and nice up there, and my mom was nice enough to watch our dogs so it was just us two. This may sound cheesy but it felt like when we used to date :)

We took up the canoe and decided too go fishing on the lake. We probably went around 9:30 and the water was BEAUTIFUL. Nobody was on the lake, so it was so quiet and pretty. Eric caught a couple tiny ones but that is about it. We had so much fun, and it was so nice just being with Eric. No phones, no dogs, no TV, no nothing :) Love you babe!!













I know it looks gross, but our dinner was YUMMY!!!! :)





Warning: Next picture is me just woken up.....lol





Also, the boys decided to make us dinner tonight :) Eric was boiling some potatoes and turned on the wrong burner (I do it ALL the time!!) and on the burner that he turned on there was a glass cake pan, before we knew it we heard this loud shattering noise!! I guess this is what happens when glass gets too hot..












The final product! Shrimp scampi, garlic mashed potatoes and salad. YUMMO :) Thanks boys.

Well, that is my week in a nut shell, sorry so long....:)

Pictures :)

Me and my mom decided to take advantage of the beautiful day and take some pics of my belly :) My mom has always wanted to take pictures professionally and i think she did such a good job!! Warning: There is alot!! Enjoy :)